Discovering A Deeper Love
Release your fear. Release the
past. Don't let the mind-chatter run your life. Get out of the tornado
of your thoughts and get into your heart.
Let go and let God. Trust God.
Trust yourself. You know how. You know the answers. Just do it.
Love will win if you just open your heart.
This is what I tell myself and
others, day in, day out. I know these things. They reel off my
tongue smoothly. I know the truth of these principles inside and
out.
I also know that one little place
in my life where I haven't allowed the light of these ideas in.
You know, that one, maybe not-so-little place where all of these
principles seem meaningless, petty, cliche` even. I know that
place in me and you know that place in you.
It's that place where I pray
for healing, but deep down I "know" I'm too broken for even God
to have any affect. I pray for healing expecting nothing and receiving
nothing.
It's that place that seems to
rear its ugly head more and more often in my life.
Finally, it begins to ruin almost
every day. It drains my energy, it drains my relationships, it
drains my self-confidence. It gets so bad that I have to struggle
every day to find things to be grateful for. I start to wonder
if I'll ever be happy again. I struggle in my work, I struggle
in my life, I struggle, struggle, struggle.
All right, already! I give up!
God, I'm ready to heal this! Let it go! I'm not willing to carry
this around anymore!
And just like that, it's gone.
Really, literally, it's gone. I feel lighter, happier, healthier,
free. I feel simple, deep, abiding love where before there was
nothing but fear.
I have found a deeper love for
me, by me. I finally let go of the fear that has bound me for
ages. I am free, I am loved, I am whole. I always have been, it
was just time to remember.
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